I will admit that I am a bit of a fan of the books and the movies, I take them as a bit of light hearted entertainment, a journey into a world of fantasy which we would all like to secretly be a part of.

Many are supeised when I say I am a Bond fan, I am afterall a young female born in the post feminist age and as such I shouldn’t really enjoy the sexist out dated character of Bond.

Or at least that’s what my contempories think.

But I take the Bond series as nothing more than entertainment and pure fun, a couple hours of escapeism. Nothing more.

Yes Bond is sexist, but he is also damaged and vengeful, traits which are just starting to be shown through the brilliant acting of Daniel Craig. Perhaps this will be the film on which many Bond detractors will start to realize the true nature of the character and begin to realize why he is the way he is.

Also let us not forget that Bond is essentially his creator, Bond is the man Fleming aspired to be but never quite made it. So perhaps the character tell us more about the man behind scenes than it dies about anything else.

Me, I will continue to enjoy the movies for what they are, entertainment. And as for Daniel Craig, well there’s just an added bonus!

know the difference!

When you work for an ambulance service in a control room.

Let me explain. It is the kind of job where people call you for help, often they only way they can feel reassured is when someone tellsvthem help is on the way, but sometimes they need your help before a paramedic even gets to their door.

The diffrence you can make at the end of a phone is vital, you can save a life without even being there.

So it is always painful when you make a mistake that could cost someone their life and you always hope and pray that everything will turn out for the best, partly for the paitent but mostly for selfish reasons and to ease you own concious.

Many people think the job of 999 call taker is easy, just take a name and address and you done. But what most don’t realize is that you are the first line of help in someone desperate hour of need and we need to be able to offer advice which can make a difference.

So next time you call 999 remember what we have to do to help you.

The sort who wear Barbour jackets, tilley hats, green Wellington boots and jodpours come rain or shine.

More often than not they are short and dumpy leaving me feeling sorry for the poor horse.

Success to these people is measured by the lineage of the horse, the Land Rover they drive and the value of their shares in the public utilities.

The harsh realities of real life often passes them buy as the credit crunch means nothing more than perhaps not being able to afford more than three holidays rather than the usual four a year.

A minimum wage to many of them is something considered to be no less than 30k per year, after all anything below that makes you a part of the working classes and even 30k only places you in the lower orders of the middle classes.

Yes this is an example of Britian as it has always been, the people who really run the country and have done so for centuries and will continue to do so for centuries to come.

Over the past few months myself and my partner have been going through some tough times, in fact since about May 2006 things have been increasingly difficult between us and finally I decided to tell him how I really felt.

What I had to say wasn’t nice, I still haven’t forgiven myself for hurting him, but I felt what was said had to be said.

In May 06, his mother died after a short illness and cutting a long story short it tore him up and I felt totally helpless as I watched him deal with his grief and turn from a generous warm person to someone who can be harsh and cold and insensitive to other peoples feelings.

So I told him this. I told him that I felt his mothers death had changed him. I finally told him how I really feel and he doesn’t like it and says he ‘doesn’t think he can forgive’ me.

So the short simple moral, no one likes to know how you really feel because it may well be something they don’t want to hear.

People want to be re-assured, people want an illusion of open communication and people don’t want to really know what’s on your mind for fear of being hurt.

Cynical? maybe. But everywhere I look these days all I seem to see are people hiding their true feelings in order to save someone else.

The iPhone is a nice bit I kit, I don’t doubt that for a moment, but it only seems to be aimed at one market…the ‘I’m a hip young thing who gets my hair done at Toni and Guy, always wears black and think trendy is sitting in Starbucks all day while slagging them off for being corporate’ types

In other words those who like the latest gadets and who will dump them when the next big thing comes along.

Now I did toy with the idea of getting a iPhone, but a few things stopped me, firstly afore mentioned image (and my lack of it), secondly, I don’t want to be tied just to one network as the iPhone is with o2, thirdly, my big fat fingers on the touch screen and the fact that I never hit the right key first time and finally, it’s just too big.

So when I decided to go for a BlackBerry 8120 in a rather nice shade of red. And I have to say I am more than happy with it.

I have owned a BlackBerry before and was over the moon with it, but due to a few things when it came to getting my next phone I had to go back to something ‘normal’ so on Sunday on setting up my new berry, it felt like coming home in manner of speaking.

So what about the image of those who own BlackBerry’s. Well if your in the UK, it’s still very much the domain of the businessman or top flight journalist, it is without shame a business machine.

But if you go to the home of the BlackBerry, Canada, you will see a different side to the device, one which is very slowly creeping into the UK (and about time too)  and that is of a device for both business and social networking.

At the moment Rogers, a Canadian telecommunications company, are making a big thing of the BlackBerry’s accessibility to sites like MySpace and Facebook, everywhere you go on the Subways in Toronto there are adverts showing the BlackBerry and it’s social networking facilities.

And it looks as though it has been so successful that almost every teenager and adult across all social backgrounds and classes in Toronto (and across the rest of Canada, I’m sure) has a BlackBerry in their hand. Any other phone is a novelty to see.

So is the iPhone better? I honestly think not. To be honest if you turn up to a business meeting with a iPhone I don’t think you’ll be taken that seriously. But with a BlackBerry in your pocket, you’ll be taken seriously as a business person because you’ll be someone seen as always being contactable in any form and increasingly you’ll be seen as someone who takes their social networking seriously by having a good laugh with it.

As for me, that’s all very useful, but the clincher for me is it’s easy of use and the fact I can hit the right key first time, every time!

My two weeks in Toronto (of which I shall tell you more in another post) have taught me something, not just that I needed a holiday, but that I need to spread my wings and get a new job, get a job which can help me develop and hopefully get me work in Canada.

So I have started applying for work, I’m applying for anything that might interest me, anything that I think I may be able to do, anything as long as it earns me some decent money (I can’t afford a pay cut) and gets me some new skills.

I have already taken the first steps by joining the St John Ambulance, I will be taking my initial first aid course next week, I’ll obtain some new skills which I can transfer into any job, but more than anything it will show my willingness to learn, my willingness to take on a new challenge.

Who knows what will happen, all I know it that it will be a bumpy ride and there will be plenty of ups and downs, but it will be an adventure none the less.

I have always found writing an organic process, if it happens great, but it’s something that can’t be forced because if you try it never quite comes out right.

I thought about trying to write a poem, but then I’m not a poetic person so it wouldn’t work, so then I thought about telling you about my vacation. The problem there however is that I haven’t taken it yet, but I will sure let you know when it happens and post some pictures of Toronto in wintertime in the process.

So in the meantime, if you have any ideas of what I can write about let me know, otherwise I’ll just keep thinking about it.

And yes very nice it is too, but that isn’t want really makes Apple successful, it’s the small things which have become indespensible in our every day lives which can be used on a PC I would love a Mac notebook, I just can’t afford one at the moment, so I own a PC laptop instead.

But for years I have owned an iPod in one form or another and play all my music on iTunes.

And to me this is what makes Apple really successful, the products which are portable, fun and useable on any computer regardless of platform or operating system.

Yes the Zune is out there, but lets face it everyone wants an iPod nano, an iPhone, a shuffle or an iPod Touch because it’s easy to use and it looks good!

So Apple don’t sweat the big stuff, stick with the small inovative stuff because what we want is the fun, cross platform products which intragrate into our everyday lives.

So it was no surprise when yesterday I went into my local Apple store for a browse to walk out with a new iPod Touch.

Now do I need it…well no, but did I want it, yes of course, it has everything on it I could ever want to use from checking my e-mail at the top of a mountain (as long as the wi-fi gets that far of course) to playing music and downloading photos.

However it occured to me today that while it may be a nifty little device  which I will get many hours of use out of and  find very useful, it is also yet another device to make us think we are communicating with one another when we are simply finding another excuse not to actually talk to one another.

There is alot to be said for sitting down and talking and listening to one another and yet we seem to be losing that one things that makes us human.

Even this blog isn’t really really talking, it’s simply an internal monologue put out there into the aether which may well reach a few of you and which may well make you think, and yet I’m not actually verbalizing this to anyone.

Perhaps one day things will come full circle and we will begin to talk again…in the meantime I have an iPod Touch to play with!

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